Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Fools Rush In

I don't like to rush very often. That's why I get up so early in the morning when I could just take a half hour to get ready for work--I hate feeling rushed. Not to mention that I like to have time for the caffeine from that first cup of coffee in the morning to kick in before I attempt to do anything requiring great thought, like making sure my socks match.

When it comes to making decisions, sometimes I rush and sometimes I don't. It depends on the circumstance. Typically, I can make "big" decisions fairly easily. But deciding which dessert to order at a restaurant--now, for some reason, that takes a lot of contemplation.

The older I get the more I'm realizing that decision-making, for the most part, is not something to be rushed. I mean the big decisions in life, like whether to accept a job offer, or even the not-so-big decisions. Really, every decision can have an impact, some greater than others, on my life.

Lately I've felt spiritually lonely; that's the best way I can describe it. It's been a while since I've been in a group Bible study, and I've really missed that. I haven't been getting together with any friends to study and pray together. I can really sense that void. I've been praying the last few weeks about it. Normally, I would rush right out and try to find someone to study with or join an ongoing study group, but this time I'm sitting still.

Today a friend told me that her small group is about to start a new Bible study in August, and she invited me to be part of it. It definitely seems like an answer to my prayers. And yet, uncharacteristic of me, I told her that I needed to pray for confirmation before I committed to it.

And so I'm praying, and trusting that God will give me the answer sooner rather than later. Certainly, a Bible study is a GOOD thing to be part of--but it may not be the study He wants me to be part of at this time. Maybe God wants me to remain in this spiritual loneliness so that I totally depend on Him for my meat. We shall see.


DJG said...

I admire your restraint. Had I been praying for a group and got invited, I would jump in...many times to my regret!

Trust God, he will show you the way!

Rhonda said...


God will give you the answer that is best for you!

You have a lot of wisdom to interject in to a group Bible study. I know that your presence would be a blessing and encouragement to all if God should lead you to join this Bible study!

I admire your dependence on God to lead you in all your decisions! What a great example your actions are!