Sunday, November 25, 2007

Revival

It's confession time. Lately--I can't put a finger on exactly how long it's gone on--I've had a less than stellar attitude toward church. Okay, my attitude has pretty much stunk.

I've been quick to judge, quick to criticize. I can sense myself becoming more cynical.

I don't like it. I don't like me this way.

I've been praying for revival to break out in our church--but truly, I'm the one most in need of revival. As I told one friend tonight, how can I expect others to live up to a standard that I'm unwilling to live up to? I've been prideful, envious and stubborn. I've been quick to speak and slow to listen. I haven't been gracious and loving and sacrificial.

Yes, there needs to be a revival--start with me, Lord, o wretched (wo)man that I am.

4 comments:

snapshot said...

Amen. Me too.

DJG said...

ouch! Are you talking to me?

Confessing Lunatic said...

Well put, Lisa. I share the same struggle. I know God wants to work in our church, to provide that spark of enthusiasm for sharing God's love that is lacking and I keep waiting for someone to listen to God's leading, stand up and start something. Perhaps that someone is me.

Jon Owen said...

I see you wrote this AFTER our conversation. While I agree with you, I also say, hold your horses. Sometimes revival starts with a holy discontent. Just because things "are" doesn't mean that they "should be." I think your sentiment is right, complaining won't get you anywhere, but if there's a stirring in your heart for something richer and deeper, maybe you're the catalyst to lead it.