Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Blame It on the Decaf

This morning I decided to try swapping my regular cup of coffee for decaf.

Big mistake.

I've been in a bit of a funk all day. Not necessarily an I-could-cry-at-any-moment-if-you-look-at-me-funny kind of funk, but more like an I-don't-feel-like-doing-anything funk. I don't think lack of caffeine is really to blame, but it's probably somewhat of a contributor, to my headache if not my mood.

While there's not anything major going on in my life at the moment, I'm feeling for some friends who are struggling with rocky family relationships and shattered dreams. I want to encourage them, but I'm feeling totally inadequate to do so. Even my prayers feel stale this week, as though my words merely bounce off the ceiling and richochet back to me rather than reach God's ears. Silly, I know, but it's hard to muster the desire to talk to God right now, even though I know He is eagerly waiting to hear from me at all times.

I know that this funk will pass, probably within a few days. In the meantime, I'm comforted to know that God does not expect me to be little miss sunshine all the time. Even when I can't find words to say or the energy to say them, I can still curl up in His lap, figuratively speaking, and just let Him hold me. How thankful I am that I don't have to be "on" all the time for Him. There is a special comfort in just being with Him and not having to say anything.

Tomorrow I'll take a road trip to Cullman for a meeting, so I'll have a chance to get away for a few hours and be in the car by myself. Maybe by then my funk will have passed and I'll be singing praise songs at the top of my lungs.

One thing's for sure--I'm switching back to regular coffee tomorrow.


Jon Owen said...

Ah Cullman. There used to be a great Mexican Restaurant there called Migeul's. It's shell still overlooks I-65. It was owned by a Christian family and they played CCM and had paintings of Jesus all over the walls. Gotta love Mexican food, Nashville music, and a Galilean Savior all in one stop.

Download the new Passion CD (God Of This City) and it will bless your travels.

That Girl said...

Miguel's is no longer here but the family owns a restaurant in town. We have a bunch of other great Mexican restaurants!

Be careful today!

Snapshot said...

At Winterfest this weekend, I made a HUGO mistake. I picked up decaf coffee by mistake for the chaperones. There was a major revolt. Lots of crying and gnashing of teeth. When adults have to function on less than 4 hours of sleep a night, they MUST have regular coffee.
Lesson learned.

Confessing Lunatic said...

Having felt a similar funkk lately, I can appreciate the picture you described of curling up in God's lap. Thank you!